temporary suicide

"Drunkenness is temporary suicide: the happiness that it brings is merely negative, a momentary cessation of unhappiness." - Bertrand Russell

very apt quote right now... probably gonna endup drinking too much (alone) tonight since i'm utterly upset about having to work this weekend when i thought i wasn't going to... probably just wishful thinking there, should've known i would be here. never get to leave this place. yeah, that's all. too angry to really go into more.