tracie and/or anna

damn it all... seriously, what is fuckin wrong with me. always holding on to the past. wanting what i can't have. what i could've, but didn't have. just need to let go, but can't. always have to be the moron... easier to look back than forward. see what could have been than what is or could be. why start something new when you can keep holding on to something old?

anna, tracie, doesn't matter... never really had either one. can't let either one go. you'd think it'd matter, but at this point it doesn't. i just want someone. so i can be not alone for once. even if it's just for the night, i don't care. tired of always coming home alone. never having anyone. just need more.