afterthoughts

as if this weekend wasn't enough of a reminder that i miss being around people, tonight's grey's anatomy really nailed that home. although in a slightly different needing of people, more of the intimate, emotional variety.

since i've grown accustomed to spending so much time alone, coming home from work to my tivo and rarely anything else, i guess i'd forgotten how much i need to be with people. i may be an introvert, but i'm also a very social creature.

i'd (somehow) forgotten how great it was to sit around for hours just talking with people, not necessarily about anything even. sure i do that from time to time, but it's usually when we're out at the bar and that's just not the same... drinking satisifes other needs for me (to let go, to forget, to stop caring and just fucking have fun even if it's forgotten tomorrow).

and to come home and see the episode tonight stirred in just a touch of longing to be in a relationship to the mix, completing the recipe for an emotional night. and now i'm alone with my thoughts. nothing to keep me company except the random IM to serve briefly as a distraction.